Valen - Pastel Skies

Didn't think that I would make it to this year Now it's just another day full of tears Load me in, my casket full of fear I'm dying now, just knowing you're not here Imma take the long way home, I don't know me Growing up I'm tired now, wish I was the old me Saw you in that avenue, tugging on my heart strings And I think it's you now every time my phone rings Pastel skies I don't give a fuck Mind so numb feeling out of touch My demise yeah I'm out of luck My blue eyes now I'm not good enough Pastel skies I don't give a fuck Mind so numb feeling out of touch My demise yeah I'm out of luck My blue eyes now I'm not good enough No matter if I try, nobody seems to arrive And when I'm shocked with fear, nobody wants to be near So I sit in my room and I write it down I sing my songs and I wipe my frown I cry in bed but I don't know how My tears are still and they won't fall down I been so alone since the day that you left me Never paid attention to all of the things you said to me Now there is a hole in my chest where my heart should be I called the doctor he said there's no recovery Now I try to open my mind And see what it's like to be in love again Does she want to be in my life Maybe I'll lie so I won't lose another friend Don't she see she doesn't love me the way that I want her to (That I want her to) I can't breathe I'm gritting my teeth and holding my tongue Cause I know that imma say I love her too I hate that I cannot keep away from you We both know that self destruction coming tell me it ain't true Don't act like you don't know which path you wanna choose And I won't act like I wanna be with you get out my head Imma take the long way home, I don't know me Growing up I'm tired now, wish I was the old me Saw you in that avenue, tugging on my heart strings And I thinks it's you now every time my phone rings Pastel skies I don't give a fuck Mind so numb feeling out of touch My demise yeah I'm out of luck My blue eyes now I'm not good enough Didn't think that I would make it to this year Now it's just another day full of tears Load me in, my casket full of fear I'm dying now, just knowing you're not here Imma take the long way home, I don't know me Growing up I'm tired now, wish I was the old me Saw you in that avenue, tugging on my heart strings And I think it's you now every time my phone rings Pastel skies I don't give a fuck Mind so numb feeling out of touch My demise yeah I'm out of luck My blue eyes now I'm not good enough Pastel skies I don't give a fuck Mind so numb feeling out of touch My demise yeah I'm out of luck My blue eyes now I'm not good enough No matter if I try, nobody seems to arrive And when I'm shocked with fear, nobody wants to be near So I sit in my room and I write it down I sing my songs and I wipe my frown I cry in bed but I don't know how My tears are still and they won't fall down I been so alone since the day that you left me Never paid attention to all of the things you said to me Now there is a hole in my chest where my heart should be I called the doctor he said there's no recovery Now I try to open my mind And see what it's like to be in love again Does she want to be in my life Maybe I'll lie so I won't lose another friend Don't she see she doesn't love me the way that I want her to (That I want her to) I can't breathe I'm gritting my teeth and holding my tongue Cause I know that imma say I love her too I hate that I cannot keep away from you We both know that self destruction coming tell me it ain't true Don't act like you don't know which path you wanna choose And I won't act like I wanna be with you get out my head Imma take the long way home, I don't know me Growing up I'm tired now, wish I was the old me Saw you in that avenue, tugging on my heart strings And I thinks it's you now every time my phone rings Pastel skies I don't give a fuck Mind so numb feeling out of touch My demise yeah I'm out of luck My blue eyes now I'm not good enough