Chelsea Cutler - I Don’t Feel Alive

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[Verse 1]
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Skin and bones, stomach aches
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Lucid dreams, hold my breath when I’m wide awake
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Connecticut, dissociate
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Maybe I should buy a house in a town upstate

[Pre-Chorus]
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If I could, I’d wake myself up when I am somebody that I’m proud of

[Chorus 1]
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I’m getting undressed for my lover
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And praying she don’t hate all my skin like I do
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I’m reading books and drinking coffee
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Stepping on a scale I keep in the bathroom
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The water goes downhill, and still
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I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
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And I don’t feel alive
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No, I don’t feel alive

[Verse 2]
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Telehealth, TV episodes
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Swallow seeds, but the fruit never seems to grow
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Validatе, what I know
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What I believe in and еverywhere I wanna go

[Pre-Chorus]
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If I could, I’d wake myself up when I am somebody that I’m proud of

[Chorus 2]
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I’m paying three different psychologists
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Trying to remember who I told what story to
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I’m writing feelings in a journal
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Cuz’ that’s what people who have their shit together seem to do
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The water goes downhill, and still
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I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
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And I don’t feel alive
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No, I don’t feel alive

[Post-Chorus]
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I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
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I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs

[Chorus 3]
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I’m learning how to set my boundaries
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How to have compassion for myself and for my mind
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I’m turning off my fucking cell phone
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And trying to have honest conversations in real life
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The water goes downhill, and still
C#m A
I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
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And I don’t feel alive
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No, I don’t feel alive

[Post Chorus]
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I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
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I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
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I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
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I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs